Fruit of the loom (aka passion fruit)

I really hate the position I’m in. My AK problems are really just becoming frustrating. I don’t want to have to go back and forth between them. I want to be able to choose. It’s harder then that though, because neither show distinct interest and both have complications. While I’m not sure A is right for me, and for good reason when you look at the specifics, K isn’t much better. With A things seem fake or at least loaded with BS half the time. Very rarely are we talking about anything of substance. With K it’s the exact opposite, we are always talking about family issues, her hip, her surgery, our pasts, what makes us happy. It’s everything I want in that aspect but I have no guarantee of how she feels about me. A has admitted that she likes me, but things seem to change suddenly. Immediately after this admittance, we were seeing what would happen, then not very long after that, it seems like we were back to just friends and maybe we should give up on the ever being more then that. Now that I really would like to commit to K, it seems like she’s grasping on and trying to rekindle things. I don’t want friendship, I want passion.